Urgency

Arguably the most important skill students learn in college is time management. As an involved college student, I became an expert at prioritizing my schedule to fit the needs of the different facets of my student life. Subsequently, I was an avid advocate for using planners and scheduling the parts of my life I could. With this ability to manage almost every hour of my time, I became so engrossed in being efficient with everything I did. I carried everything out with a sense of urgency. I was constantly reminding myself of what I needed to do and prioritizing these tasks based on how urgent they were in comparison to others.

As you can imagine, this left me pretty high-strung just like the majority of other high-aspiring college students, which is why I decided taking a year off and moving back home to relax would be the best decision I could make after I graduated. The thought of having minimal responsibilities (no cooking, cleaning, paying bills, roommate drama, etc.) and being able to save money for the future could not have been more appealing when I was at the pinnacle of my college involvement. However, after living at home now for 5 months, I have come to miss the sense of urgency in my daily life.

Although I have a full-time job and have minimal free time, having the daily satisfaction of having accomplished something meaningful seems somewhat lost. I still have tasks scheduled everyday, but the weight behind these seem less important as these are tasks I am completing for a short-term purpose i.e. going to work, working out, writing blog posts, etc. I miss being able to confidently complete a task that was assigned to me for a purpose. Most of the time these consisted of homework assignments and papers, but other times they were simple responsibilities I completed on my own. I am starting to realize that the responsibility I was looking forward to losing was the motivating force behind my college success. Having these pressures put on me were stressful, but they also gave me an opportunity to define myself.

The past 16 years of my life have revolved around school and all the activities to go along with it, and I seem somewhat lost not having that progression. I am still unsure where I will be next year and am adapting to life without classes and control. I currently submitted all of my materials to the medical schools I am applying to and am waiting to hear back about potential interviews. I am stuck in a waiting game, and the rest is out of my hands. I am anxious about my future and am trying to find a way to appease my inner go-getter. Part of this adaptation is finding the motivators to replace my homework and allow myself to continue to grow and be successful.

As it has taken me almost 5 months to come to terms with this idea, I am not expecting to have any life revelations anytime soon. However, I can rely on the support of my family and friends and my trust in God to help me with this discovery.

” The ultimate measure of man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.” – Martin Luther King Jr.